tough as a mother

so it's mother's day.

a day set aside to honor those who have nurtured us, accepted us, loved us & gave us a swift kick in the behind when we've needed it, too.

all i really wanted this year was a picture of me & the kiddos...and flowers, lots of flowers...or plants in general, maybe some herbs...oh & chocolate covered strawberries...and to sleep in & eat out...oh, & to have this baby. 

am i the worst?

i'm the worst, right? 

geesh. 

anyway, we tried to grab a group photo before we headed off to church but the kids were not cooperating & it was time to go & i got aggravated & we just gave up. per the norm on many a sunday morn, we wrangled everyone into the van huffing & puffing. i love 'em, but that's the truth of it. 

anyway, we went to church, repented & gave the family pic another go in the park that's beside our church. it was seriously such a gloriously beautiful day. hence me currently writing this post on our back deck, barefoot, in my sun hat listening to the wind chimes while hubs plants the above mentioned flowers i received for mother's day. ;)

so, on the eve of me possibly giving birth again at any time, i have no deep longing to reflect on the wonders of motherhood, just a burning desire to share these sweet pics that i will treasure forever. 

the last mother's day as a mother of 4...

...unless, of course i have him today.

my last mother's day as a mother of 4. five kids. still doesn't seem real. 

we can't wait to meet ya little buddy.

shoutout to all my mother's out there. you all rock.

and shoutout to my baby daddy boo without whom i wouldn't be a mother. 

xo